My True Love!

When I was younger, I was always wanting boys attention, talked about my new and recent crushes, or talked about different guys being cute or "hot". Never once did I go a day without thinking about this stuff. I worried all the time about what boys thought of me, but hardly ever thought about what God thought of me. 

The beginning of this past summer, I was convicted on this area of my life. I dug so far down the pit, that the only thing I was really caring about was what others (ESPECIALLY what guys) thought of me. It was very unhealthy, and it became a huge idol in my life. 

I was confused and didn't even know where to start... I continually pray about it, and thought, "Man, I really need to change. This is not at all satisfying. All I am doing is worrying about my relationships and thoughts about guys. This is extremely unhealthy, and I need ONLY worry about what my Heavenly Father thinks about me."

I was convicted that the only approval I needed right now was my Heavenly Father's. And the only relationships I needed to continue to work on was: 

1. My relationships with my family (loving, caring, encouraging, and being there for them). 
2. My girl friends (encouraging them in their walk with the Lord and being there for them. Willing to hear and listen to them whenever they need to talk)
3. Healthy friendships with my guy friends (Serving and caring about them)
4. Most importantly with my God: (Serving, seeking, and becoming more intimate with Him.)

As I am single, I need to continually work on my relationship with my family. And I need to work on my relationship with my daddy... He is the only one, besides the Lord who has my heart right now. He is my hero and one day if the Lord Wills I will be handed off by my hero to my prince. 

Most importantly though, I need to work on my relationship with my Lord. I need to continue to seek Him daily and grow closer to Him, getting to know Him more intimately every day. He is my #1!!!! 

Until the day comes, I am going to remember that I am satisfied in Christ! I won't always do this perfectly and yes there are hard days where I want nothing more than to be dating or married to an awesome man. But I need to continually remind myself that in God's timing and if He Wills it to happen (I will be dating and married). I am loved by friends, yes.... And my family. But my True Love is my Heavenly Father! And I need to continually focus on Him at this time and be patient even when it is hard. Because He has an AMAZING plan for my life!