It's been Awhile

As I sit here sick to my stomach with anxiety and trying to get myself motivated to do school... I decided that I would hop on here and write a post. The last few months have been really tough emotionally, physically, Spiritually, and mentally. It's been a whirlwind of craziness from event to event. It has been insane living with a Kidney Disease that you do not know how you are going to feel the next hour. One hour I may feel fine where I can sit and enjoy people's company around me and the next moment I could be doubled over in pain. This has definitely been a hard journey for me.

My mind and heart want to be completely back at the gym and working out a ton again, but I know that I need to start out slow so that I do not overwork myself and cause more health issues. Emotionally it's been really hard to keep up with school. I have no motivation right now and that has been really working against me. Spiritually I feel that sometimes God is distant. I keep trying to remind myself that He is always with me no matter what... but sometimes it feels that He is far. These health issues have definitely brought some arguments and not getting along with certain individuals in my life. It has become a very stressful thing to deal with in my life. I am trying to honor God in every situation that He throws my way, but it definitely has become very difficult to experience often. 

I know that God has me and that He will get me through this difficult journey. He has provided me many promises that I need to continually hold onto. He has been amazing and has brought amazing friends into my life that have been here for me through thick and thin. I am so thankful for these friends that have continually dragged me to the foot of the cross even when things seemed impossible. You know who you are... If you are reading this. I am so blessed by you guys. Thank you so much! 

I am hoping to write more often and some more soon on here.