Living Life with a Longing Heart

You should listen to this song... It has really encouraged me lately. It is a great reminder that no matter what is going on in life: Whether you are confused, stressed, joyful, etc... Remember that God has a plan for everything. Remember that His Will will be completed. Leave it in our Savior's hands.

Today I have been thinking about confidence. Lately I have been realizing that I struggle so much with being confident in who I am. I have always cared what people thought about me and if someone didn't like me... It freaked me out. I got to the point in high school where I was getting bullied and teased for certain things about my outer appearance and for my character. Honestly, when I have had parents, people that I know, or really just anyone start talking about me and reasons why they didn't like me or reasons to stay away from me... It really tore me apart. I got to the point where I was super down and depressed when I would find someone that didn't like me. It made me emotionally and mentally sick. Recently the Lord has been really trying to show me that I need to be confident in who I am in Him. It doesn't matter what others think of me... It just matters what Christ thinks of me. I don't need the approval of anyone, except Christ's. The Lord has ...

Today I am going to be talking about relationships... Okay this is definetely not a topic that I would most like to talk about. Because right now, this is definetely a hard and raw topic for me. But I would love to encourage others that may be going through something similar like me. When I started high school I was extremely boy crazy and wanted a guy to like me so badly. I honestly was so extremely immature when it came to guys that I liked. And every single one of the young men that I liked, the whole thing ended up in a bad situation. Finally when I was a Senior in high school, I had the attitude that guys were stupid and I wanted to be done with them for a VERY long time. For about five months, I continued with that attitude.. But then I started really admiring a young man that I was pretty sure would have been the one that I was going to one day marry. This young man and I started liking one another and we started moving way too fast. At the time, I thought that the relations...

Tonight I was sitting thinking about something to blog about and then I thought... You know what there are eight things I think that every teenage girl needs to know. I am learning each of these things constantly, it isn't a one time thing and then you got it down... No it will take time, so don't worry. You are valuable - Honestly, through out all my teen years, I felt that I needed a guy to make me satified in who I am as a person. I thought:  if I only had a boyfriend, then I would be happy and be content. Let me tell you what, I definetely learned this the hard way. When I started high school I was constantly flirting with guys, trying to get their attention, etc. I basically would have done anything to have a boyfriend... I went behind my parents backs so many times and would end up in trouble, but I didn't care. I wanted to be happy and "satisfied". But let me tell you what, having a guy in your life will definetely not satisfy you. There were times I g...

My life before Christ:  I grew up in a Christian home and went to church every Sunday... But I really did not enjoy church. I only went to church, because I knew it was something we did every week. But I really didn't have a longing to learn anything. As I was growing up in the church, I became very bitter towards my parents, but didn't think I had a problem with my attitude, so I continued down that path. The Turning Point:  After several months of being at Cornerstone (my church), the Lord started working on my heart... I started listening to the sermons that were preached on Sundays and wanting to learn from them and realizing I needed to listen with the intent of learning. I also attended a Bible study for mothers and daughters... One day at one of the Bible studies, there was a college woman that came to speak to us girls. She shared her testimony with us and I realized that she was a mirror image of what I was being like when she was younger. After hearing her testi...

God has been teaching me a ton lately... I have been having some pretty weird times lately with: Relationships, moving, trying to figure out college stuff, trying to find a job, and really trying to figure out what God wants me to do with my future. So to be quite frank, it has been quite burdening and overwhelming for me at times. To be honest, I tried taking matters into my own hands. I tried working out relationships with my own strength, I tried doing things all on my own. I started failing at all these aspects of trying to make things perfect in my life... But I continued to fall on my face doing it. I know it sounds weird and that I should have realized after several times of falling.... But it has taken a lot for me to realize and own up to knowing that I can't do it on my own. Some things I have been learning the last few days about all of this are: I need to trust the Lord with my future, my relationships, and really EVERYTHING! I need to not take control of ever...