Living Life with a Longing Heart

Good afternoon everyone, I hope you all are doing well. So today I have been really thinking about it. At times I get discouraged feeling that maybe my blog isn't encouraging other people through what they are going through or maybe I am just not an interesting person. But then, I just have to keep reminding myself that God has a plan. Even if others don't like what I write about or they don't find it interesting... At least it is a thing for me to be able to go back and read later on or to show my kids in the future if they go through similar things (and then they can know they aren't alone). Honestly, I would love my blog to encourage others that read it to know that God has a plan for every single thing we go through. Yes, it may be painful as we are going through it... But every single thing I have gone through, God has been here every step of the way, guiding me, me and pulling me through all of this... And He is making me stronger through it all. And then one day...

Hey everyone, I know I am up late writing this. I have been having thoughts just fly through my head about my eating disorder and thought that I could write it up for my blog. Honestly if you are reading this and have/had an eating disorder... I want you to know right now, you are not alone. Right now, I am going to give you some background of how I first started my eating disorder and then I will move into some encouragement of maybe some ideas of how you can get out of it. I hope that you find this post encouraging! How my eating disorder started: Back in the beginning of the year I lost a friendship that was very dear to me. I felt very insecure and  felt that I couldn't fit in, even with some of the closest friends of mine. After I lost this dear friend of mine in my life, I had remembered all I went through during high school of being bullied by past close friends and then I had remembered the cyber bullying I went through. But especially after losing this friendship, ...

The lyrics to this song are amazing and so encouraging.

To the one who may reading this that struggles with depression/anxiety/isolation/feeling worthless... This blog is just for you. If this is your first time reading my blog, you will soon find out that these are some of the exact things that I have/had struggled with in my life. The past few weeks there have been some mornings I have felt that I shouldn't be here. Sometimes I think that other peoples lives would be so much easier if I wasn't in their life. And then there are times that I feel that I am a burden to others lives. Sometimes I feel that I should just not be here, or I feel so sick and tired of waking up nauseous from my anxiety. Some days I wake up feeling that I don't have value and that it doesn't matter what others would do to me, because I feel worthless anyways... And then there are times I feel like I should just close up and isolate completely away from everyone and just pretend that my life is all great. So here are some thoughts to you who may ...

This song called, Broken is extremely encouraging and has been a huge encouragement to me. The lyrics are extremely powerful. Honestly this song is exactly how I feel currently. Literally I feel like I am barely holding on... But I keep reminding myself that God has a purpose for me even if I don't see it right now...  I just need to keep remembering that God has some sort of plan, even if I don't feel that way.