You are Not Alone!
To the one who may reading this that struggles with depression/anxiety/isolation/feeling worthless... This blog is just for you. If this is your first time reading my blog, you will soon find out that these are some of the exact things that I have/had struggled with in my life.
The past few weeks there have been some mornings I have felt that I shouldn't be here. Sometimes I think that other peoples lives would be so much easier if I wasn't in their life. And then there are times that I feel that I am a burden to others lives.
Sometimes I feel that I should just not be here, or I feel so sick and tired of waking up nauseous from my anxiety. Some days I wake up feeling that I don't have value and that it doesn't matter what others would do to me, because I feel worthless anyways... And then there are times I feel like I should just close up and isolate completely away from everyone and just pretend that my life is all great.
So here are some thoughts to you who may be reading this and going through some of these exact feelings that I have/had gone through.
First off, I will talk about depression... If you are going through depression you really need to make sure that you are talking to someone that can keep you accountable during your depression. The person that you are asking for accountability with, you need to make sure it is someone that you can trust and talk about really anything with. For awhile I kind of had a hard time finding someone that I could trust with my feelings and what I am going through. The Lord finally brought a few people into my life that I can trust and that I can talk to whenever I need to, through thick and through thin. The relationships do not need to be perfect, because no relationship is perfect... However you will need to be willing to work out any miscommunications or whatever if you have them with the person you are being held accountable by.
Next I will talk about anxiety... As most of you know from previous posts, I have really bad anxiety. I have struggled with severe anxiety for about 7-8 years. It is really hard... There are some mornings I wake up so sick like with stomach flu symptoms... It gets so painful and makes things really hard to even do anything physically sometimes and even emotionally. It can mess with your whole body a lot. Anyways, with anxiety I make sure that I have someone I can talk to about this to be able to calm down and talk logically with the person. Then on top of that, you need to drown yourself in God's Word... It really does help. However there are some times where I am so anxious that I don't even know what to read in the Bible... So I have to ask a friend to just text bomb me with scripture, have them pray with me, and I put worship music on (to hear the truths from scripture that are put into songs).
With feeling worthless... Honestly I don't really know how to help this area currently. Because to be completely honest, I have been struggling in this area a ton lately. I know that one thing is we just have to keep surrounding ourselves with people who preach to us the truth of the Word of God and that truly love us. And we need to surround ourselves in the Word, because God's truth will always prevail.
Lastly, isolation... Isolation is really hard not to fall into. I am normally a complete extrovert and I have always been. But since the beginning of this year, I have fallen into becoming very isolated and introverted... To the point of most of the times it being pretty bad. With isolation you need to be extremely careful. For me I have had to ask a close friend of mine to keep me accountable in this area. And I have asked this friend of mine to push me even if I do not want to share... This friend is extremely protective and caring of me, that they make sure to do so. And even at times when I do not want to share, my friend will make me and in the end it is always better.
I know that this was a lot and some of what I said was probably pretty vague. However, if you have any questions at all, PLEASE get a hold of me and just ask. You can always look me up on Facebook and Private message me or comment below.
I am praying for all who read this that need encouragement and help.
Please know you are not alone!
The past few weeks there have been some mornings I have felt that I shouldn't be here. Sometimes I think that other peoples lives would be so much easier if I wasn't in their life. And then there are times that I feel that I am a burden to others lives.
Sometimes I feel that I should just not be here, or I feel so sick and tired of waking up nauseous from my anxiety. Some days I wake up feeling that I don't have value and that it doesn't matter what others would do to me, because I feel worthless anyways... And then there are times I feel like I should just close up and isolate completely away from everyone and just pretend that my life is all great.
So here are some thoughts to you who may be reading this and going through some of these exact feelings that I have/had gone through.
First off, I will talk about depression... If you are going through depression you really need to make sure that you are talking to someone that can keep you accountable during your depression. The person that you are asking for accountability with, you need to make sure it is someone that you can trust and talk about really anything with. For awhile I kind of had a hard time finding someone that I could trust with my feelings and what I am going through. The Lord finally brought a few people into my life that I can trust and that I can talk to whenever I need to, through thick and through thin. The relationships do not need to be perfect, because no relationship is perfect... However you will need to be willing to work out any miscommunications or whatever if you have them with the person you are being held accountable by.
Next I will talk about anxiety... As most of you know from previous posts, I have really bad anxiety. I have struggled with severe anxiety for about 7-8 years. It is really hard... There are some mornings I wake up so sick like with stomach flu symptoms... It gets so painful and makes things really hard to even do anything physically sometimes and even emotionally. It can mess with your whole body a lot. Anyways, with anxiety I make sure that I have someone I can talk to about this to be able to calm down and talk logically with the person. Then on top of that, you need to drown yourself in God's Word... It really does help. However there are some times where I am so anxious that I don't even know what to read in the Bible... So I have to ask a friend to just text bomb me with scripture, have them pray with me, and I put worship music on (to hear the truths from scripture that are put into songs).
With feeling worthless... Honestly I don't really know how to help this area currently. Because to be completely honest, I have been struggling in this area a ton lately. I know that one thing is we just have to keep surrounding ourselves with people who preach to us the truth of the Word of God and that truly love us. And we need to surround ourselves in the Word, because God's truth will always prevail.
Lastly, isolation... Isolation is really hard not to fall into. I am normally a complete extrovert and I have always been. But since the beginning of this year, I have fallen into becoming very isolated and introverted... To the point of most of the times it being pretty bad. With isolation you need to be extremely careful. For me I have had to ask a close friend of mine to keep me accountable in this area. And I have asked this friend of mine to push me even if I do not want to share... This friend is extremely protective and caring of me, that they make sure to do so. And even at times when I do not want to share, my friend will make me and in the end it is always better.
I know that this was a lot and some of what I said was probably pretty vague. However, if you have any questions at all, PLEASE get a hold of me and just ask. You can always look me up on Facebook and Private message me or comment below.
I am praying for all who read this that need encouragement and help.
Please know you are not alone!
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