Rant
Good afternoon everyone,
I am sorry that I have been away for so long. I am planning on being on here as regularly as possible now. I am going to give an update in my next post, but for now I am going to go on a rant. Lately I have been going through tons of medical issues that have held me back from being able to do a ton. My life in the last month has changed so much and I feel like I am living a completely different life... Sometimes I love it and other times I really struggle with it. There are other struggles and challenges going on in my life that have made it very difficult for me to process life. Friendship struggles problems with family and struggling with my faith. Honestly everything going on has made me very vulnerable.
With this blog, some may read it and think that I share too much. Honestly, I do share a lot in my blog posts, but this is a place that I feel like I can share my heart, show that I am not perfect, encourage others who may be going through similar things, etc. At times I find it hard to share my heart about things, but I know that it is good because others come back to me encouraged knowing they aren't alone.
Lately, I have been struggling with feeling like I am a burden and a pain to other people. I feel like no matter what I do or say, I feel that I am just in the way. It is really hard feeling this way. I want to feel loved and accepted, but many times I don't have that near me. The past year has been very difficult living with my family. Don't get me wrong, I do absolutely love my family, but things are really rough at home right now. I feel that one thing after another, there is just so much junk going on. It has really depressed me and put a strain on other relationships outside of the home. I feel that I have a really big trust issue from home life and past friendships from high school. I have been trying to get over it, but it definitely has been a long journey with everything.
Something I have been learning on this long journey is don't let other people define who you are. No matter how close they are to you, no matter if it is your friends, your parents, siblings, etc. Don't let them rule how you should act. Don't listen to the lies that the enemy is trying to push into your mindset. Let Christ define you! No matter how hard it is, let Him define you and let Him shape the way you live. Trust me, I know it is hard... I can't even begin to tell you how much I struggle with this. But it is the best thing to do.
I am sorry that I have been away for so long. I am planning on being on here as regularly as possible now. I am going to give an update in my next post, but for now I am going to go on a rant. Lately I have been going through tons of medical issues that have held me back from being able to do a ton. My life in the last month has changed so much and I feel like I am living a completely different life... Sometimes I love it and other times I really struggle with it. There are other struggles and challenges going on in my life that have made it very difficult for me to process life. Friendship struggles problems with family and struggling with my faith. Honestly everything going on has made me very vulnerable.
With this blog, some may read it and think that I share too much. Honestly, I do share a lot in my blog posts, but this is a place that I feel like I can share my heart, show that I am not perfect, encourage others who may be going through similar things, etc. At times I find it hard to share my heart about things, but I know that it is good because others come back to me encouraged knowing they aren't alone.
Lately, I have been struggling with feeling like I am a burden and a pain to other people. I feel like no matter what I do or say, I feel that I am just in the way. It is really hard feeling this way. I want to feel loved and accepted, but many times I don't have that near me. The past year has been very difficult living with my family. Don't get me wrong, I do absolutely love my family, but things are really rough at home right now. I feel that one thing after another, there is just so much junk going on. It has really depressed me and put a strain on other relationships outside of the home. I feel that I have a really big trust issue from home life and past friendships from high school. I have been trying to get over it, but it definitely has been a long journey with everything.
Something I have been learning on this long journey is don't let other people define who you are. No matter how close they are to you, no matter if it is your friends, your parents, siblings, etc. Don't let them rule how you should act. Don't listen to the lies that the enemy is trying to push into your mindset. Let Christ define you! No matter how hard it is, let Him define you and let Him shape the way you live. Trust me, I know it is hard... I can't even begin to tell you how much I struggle with this. But it is the best thing to do.
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