It's not Impossible

A few weeks ago I was supposed to find out my second treatment for my Kidney Disease that I have. After many Dr. appointments and continually waiting... I was starting to get really frustrated. Today, I started losing hope and I was getting really frustrated that I have been put on one of my treatments and not the other one that is supposed to work with the first treatment. I was getting down and discouraged for not having answers. Then I was continually reminded of a sermon that I listened to a month or two ago from one of my Pastor's. He was talking about how God only gives us the details that we need right now. If we knew everything that God had planned, then we would not want to go on this long journey... So we need to continually thank God for the details He has only provided for now. 

As I was continuing through my day working and doing homework... I became really discouraged again. I reached out to my birth brother from Oklahoma and a few friends to ask for prayer for patience and to just trust God during this difficult time. Being on the one treatment that has been helping my pain has been amazing, however it has been frustrating that I have side effects such as gaining weight (that has made me quite insecure of myself and very depressed). 

Just about an hour ago, I was sitting doing some homework and just trusting God and praying that He would keep giving me strength even when this road has been tough... And guess what?! A few minutes later my Dr's nurse called me and gave me an answer. She shared with me the second treatment and now I just have to wait a few more days to figure out when I will be starting the treatment. 

Lord Willing the second treatment will be started next week, but praise the Lord for answers. God has been so gracious and amazing. I am not just writing this because I finally got an answer. I am writing this because I want to share how amazing God is. Even though I was not getting answers for awhile, God still has continually been here for me and has been helping me every single step of the way. Some days it feels like He is not here or that He is ignoring me. But you know what?! God truly never leaves our side. He has been here for me this whole time whether I feel it or not. 

All I have to say is trust God with whatever you are going through. Whether it is a big or small thing, trust Him. It is hard, trust me! I know there are days where we do not feel like getting up, days where we are not motivated, days that we just want all the pain to go away. But I promise you, God has your back... He is not going to make it easy. However, it is possible... it is not impossible! God is amazing! Trust Him! 

If you are struggling with depression, trust God, anxious, etc... Please know that I am always here to talk. I want to be of an encouragement to those who are around.