Hurt
The last few days I had somethings happen that made me remember the hurt that I experienced from other people. I thought that I had moved on from the people that hurt me really bad the last few years... But then the last couple of days, I have been reminded that I am still not over the hurt. It has been very painful to remember the relatives that I have been hurt by and the friendships that I have been hurt by. It is hard when people spread rumors about you to other friends... It is hard when people do not care how others treat you... It is hard to live day to day with these people's voices in my head. I know that I should not let them control me, because they really do not know the real me. But it is for sure a hard thing to deal with and move on from.
A few things that I have learned through this process is:
1. Even if someone is your relative, that does not mean that they will for sure be there for you and stick up for you. They may not care to realize that you are hurting.
2. Just because you meet "friends" in college, does not mean that they are mature enough to stay in your life and not hurt you.
-Trust me, I have learned from experience that even though we are adults... Others do not always act as mature as they should be.
3. Friends from High School that you think will always be your best friend until the end... They are not always there for you.
-I learned in my Freshman year of college that not everyone from High School are true friends. I lost many friends from High School due to rumors being spread about me and for not being the popular hot chick.
Even though some days it hurts that I lost those friendships, I have realized that some of those people were truly never my friends. If they were, they would have stuck out through those hard difficult times.
I am honestly so thankful that God took away some of those friendships, because they were toxic to me. And I am so thankful that he brought a couple of my High School friends closer. Just one shout out, I do not know what I would do without my now Bestie, Michael. We were friends in High School, but since Freshman year of College we became extremely close, and I am so thankful for that.
There are so many other things I could talk about... But I am so glad that God has been building some amazing friendships and I am glad He took away the toxic ones.
If you are going through a rough time with losing people in your life... I get it, it hurts like hell. But you know what, God has an amazing plan. Trust Him even when it is hard.
A few things that I have learned through this process is:
1. Even if someone is your relative, that does not mean that they will for sure be there for you and stick up for you. They may not care to realize that you are hurting.
2. Just because you meet "friends" in college, does not mean that they are mature enough to stay in your life and not hurt you.
-Trust me, I have learned from experience that even though we are adults... Others do not always act as mature as they should be.
3. Friends from High School that you think will always be your best friend until the end... They are not always there for you.
-I learned in my Freshman year of college that not everyone from High School are true friends. I lost many friends from High School due to rumors being spread about me and for not being the popular hot chick.
Even though some days it hurts that I lost those friendships, I have realized that some of those people were truly never my friends. If they were, they would have stuck out through those hard difficult times.
I am honestly so thankful that God took away some of those friendships, because they were toxic to me. And I am so thankful that he brought a couple of my High School friends closer. Just one shout out, I do not know what I would do without my now Bestie, Michael. We were friends in High School, but since Freshman year of College we became extremely close, and I am so thankful for that.
There are so many other things I could talk about... But I am so glad that God has been building some amazing friendships and I am glad He took away the toxic ones.
If you are going through a rough time with losing people in your life... I get it, it hurts like hell. But you know what, God has an amazing plan. Trust Him even when it is hard.
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