Re-commitment

The last year that I have been going through some really huge trails in my life... I have been pushing God away. I have been running away from Him. I felt so much silence from God even when I tried going to Him. I felt that maybe God did not care... So I stopped reaching out to God. I quite literally stiff armed God and kept Him at a very far distance. I went down a road of sin and just did not want to do anything with a God that felt silent. After months of not going to church, I went back... But did not really pay attention. I just went and put a thick mask on. 

The last few weeks, I have realized that I was missing something. My life just did not feel right continually pushing God out of my life. I was having this longing heart to cling to my Father in Heaven, however I felt very lost and confused. I started asking some close friends questions about recommitting to God. And I expressed to them why I was scared and that I wanted God, but felt scared because of some doubting. 

On Friday, August 23rd 2019, I went to the Harvest Crusade and God really spoke to me. Throughout the night God really opened my eyes and broke down the lasting walls of doubt in my mind. As of this night forward, I recommitted my life to Christ and that was an amazing decision that I do not regret making. 

The past few days there have been many moments where Satan has been trying to start some wars... But with God on my side these temptations have been crumbled down and Jesus has overcome these temptations. Trials and hardships will continue, but God will always be here with me.