Patience and Surrendering

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The last few days have been extremely hard for me... Like I posted before, I have been very depressed and I thought I was getting over what I was going through. I thought that I had surrendered everything to Christ with my life and all my relationships, careers, school, work, health, basically just everything.
But tonight I found myself going through depression. I realized that I actually wasn't satisfied with where I am in life.
To be completely honest, I want a relationship... I want to have a man to call my boyfriend and one day hopefully my husband. But you know what?!? I can't keep going through this pain of trying to get a guy to like me all the time.
Honestly, over and over again I feel like I can just keep going on and living my life and not worry about guys... And then something comes up and then I am a mess.

Lord, I am far from perfect... Please help me to just trust in You! Help me to love You and want You only. Please give me peace... Give me patience while You help me to wait.


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