Update: 11/27/2016

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Hey everyone,
Sorry for so much silence lately on my blogging. I have been really busy with college, two jobs, ministry, health issues, and just everyday life. Anyways, today I am actually down sick right now so I decided to blog today.

Lately I have been a little discouraged and didn't really know if I should post on my blog anymore. I was getting comments from people saying that I was only negative and that I didn't look for good or trying to encourage others. To be honest, that wasn't what I was wanting for my blog. I was wanting to encourage others around me and to let others know they aren't alone in certain life situations.
It was pretty discouraging getting this feedback from people that I was just being a discouragement and that I won't go far in life.
Slowly I started pulling myself down and believing that maybe these people were right... Maybe I won't be able to go far in life, maybe I was just a pain, maybe I am not worth it.

But in just the last few days, I have been reminded otherwise. I have been reminded by my family, my birth grandparents, and my birth uncles... That I am able to go far in life. I am worthy of love, I am not alone. And that I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength.

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