Living Life with a Longing Heart

 Hey friends,  So sorry it's been awhile. Life has been so insane in 2020! I know that all of you will probably agree with me on that. Honestly, it has been a year full of challenges all around. As I think back of all that has gone on in 2020, I am looking more and more forward to this year coming to a close. I know that ultimately God has a reason for everything that is happening, however it has been quite the year of craziness and obstacles.  To give a little update about what is going on lately... As of this coming Monday, I will be 4 weeks away from finishing my BA in Early Childhood Studies with a minor in Psychology. I am on my last two classes right now. One of the classes is really challenging and hard, but I know that I can get through it and pass it. The last week, I have been extremely sick on top of trying to stay on top of classes which has been really hard. I know that God will get be through this and it's just another thing that will eventually help me to b...

 Lately I have been struggling... I have been struggling with huge insecurities in my life, struggling with guilt, struggling with my worth... Struggling with pain and not having answers with my health. Struggling with finishing school. Struggling with people pleasing and so many other things. There are things that run through my mind constantly. To be honest, I am just exhausted! I am tired of school, dealing with constant health complications, dealing of peoples thoughts and feelings towards me, etc. To add onto that, my depression, anxiety, and the COVID situation does not help with any of this. Some days it just feels so hard to continue to push forward and do my best with things. I am constantly discouraged even when I am trying my best at whatever it is.  I am not sharing all of this for people to feel bad for me or anything. But I am sharing this for prayers, for encouragement, to vent, and to show that if you are going through things... You are not alone. It sucks when...

Hey everyone, I hope you all are doing alright during this self-distancing and quarantine. Man has this been a strange few weeks... I cannot really even believe this all is happening. Sometimes it feels like I am in a very long dream. It seems like every hour rules were changing and everything has been very crazy. People have been getting sick... People are losing jobs all around the world... People are dying... People are coming to know God through this... People are freaking out... People are hoarding... People are getting to stay home and rest... Honestly lots of good and bad things are happening in our world right now due to COVID-19. To be completely honest, it is so crazy to see that our whole world is all going through the same thing... Normally it is not everyone going through similar things and now we get to all experience similar things together. Let's count this as a huge blessing through this time though, we are all able to sympathize in one way or another because we ...

Hey there friends! I am so sorry that it has been awhile since I have posted. Life has been insanely crazy lately. I have a lot of new content ideas that I want to add to my blog, so that is in the making right now. For now, I am going to share a little life update. Enjoy! At the end of September, I lost my best friend in my life. That hurt like heck and has been something that even now I am still healing from. It is a real thing that is taking a lot longer to get over than I thought it would take.  At the beginning of October, I started another round of Chemo for my Kidney disease and that lasted all month.  In the middle of October, I met an amazing man on an online dating site (YES, I did say that... That will be talked about more in another blog post.) At the beginning of November, I got hired at a Christian Preschool and have been working there since. Continually just doing my best there and loving the teacher life to young ones.  December flew by and was cra...