Living Life with a Longing Heart

Hey everyone, I know it has been a little while since I have posted. But today I thought I would post about something that a lot of people have asked me about and also, I just feel like I should share it. Basically I've had a ton of people say some things to me that could be very hurtful when you are depressed. A lot of people have asked me as well about what can be very hurtful to say or ask when one is depressed. Below are some things that you should probably not ask or say to one who is depressed. And below I will also write responses: "This stuff you are struggling with is all in your mind." - To be honest, this is a very hurtful response. You aren't taking the person's feelings all in. You are most likely just making an assumption and don't know all that is going on. "I thought you were stronger than that."- Okay, I don't think anyone should ever say this... Because we are definitely not strong... However, we do have a Savior that can he...

The last few days have been extremely hard for me... Like I posted before, I have been very depressed and I thought I was getting over what I was going through. I thought that I had surrendered everything to Christ with my life and all my relationships, careers, school, work, health, basically just everything. But tonight I found myself going through depression. I realized that I actually wasn't satisfied with where I am in life. To be completely honest, I want a relationship... I want to have a man to call my boyfriend and one day hopefully my husband. But you know what?!? I can't keep going through this pain of trying to get a guy to like me all the time. Honestly, over and over again I feel like I can just keep going on and living my life and not worry about guys... And then something comes up and then I am a mess. Lord, I am far from perfect... Please help me to just trust in You! Help me to love You and want You only. Please give me peace... Give me patience while You...

Right now I would like to talk about depression, anxiety, stress, and worry a little bit. In my blog posts, I love being honest and real with people that are reading my posts. I don't want to act like a fake person who is perfect... Because we all know that Jesus is the only one who is actually perfect. With that said, I am far from perfect... So if you are reading my blog posts and expecting someone who is perfect and has her life together, you may want to stop reading my blog posts. Because I will tell you this, I am a sinner in need of a Savior just as much as everyone else. I am a failure and fail on a day to day basis, but I can't let that stop me. I need to keep going throughout my life and lean on my Savior for help, comfort, and peace. Daily, I am trying to be more and more like Him, so all I can do is keep striving towards that goal... And when I mess up, I got to get back up again and try again. Anyways, with that all said, as you all know... I have struggled with a...

Hey everyone, Sorry for so much silence lately on my blogging. I have been really busy with college, two jobs, ministry, health issues, and just everyday life. Anyways, today I am actually down sick right now so I decided to blog today. Lately I have been a little discouraged and didn't really know if I should post on my blog anymore. I was getting comments from people saying that I was only negative and that I didn't look for good or trying to encourage others. To be honest, that wasn't what I was wanting for my blog. I was wanting to encourage others around me and to let others know they aren't alone in certain life situations. It was pretty discouraging getting this feedback from people that I was just being a discouragement and that I won't go far in life. Slowly I started pulling myself down and believing that maybe these people were right... Maybe I won't be able to go far in life, maybe I was just a pain, maybe I am not worth it. But in just the la...

Good evening everyone, I am sorry that I haven't posted on my blog in awhile. I have just been extremely busy with college and all the other changes the Lord has put in my life. Here is a little update on what has been going on in my life the past month and a half: September 6th, I started my first day of college class. For the first week Sam and I commuted back and forth to school each day from Murrieta. On September 10th, our family moved to Riverside- That was an extremely crazy weekend with lots of good friends who helped us move and get settled in to our new house. Since then I have continued in my college studies and have been working on my GE. I have not decided quite yet on my major... So that has been something that has really burdened and stressed me out lately. The second or third week of college, my ASL Professor saw me on campus and offered me a job. I applied for the position and a week later got the job. So now I work on campus at the Tutoring Center as an AS...

You should listen to this song... It has really encouraged me lately. It is a great reminder that no matter what is going on in life: Whether you are confused, stressed, joyful, etc... Remember that God has a plan for everything. Remember that His Will will be completed. Leave it in our Savior's hands.

Today I have been thinking about confidence. Lately I have been realizing that I struggle so much with being confident in who I am. I have always cared what people thought about me and if someone didn't like me... It freaked me out. I got to the point in high school where I was getting bullied and teased for certain things about my outer appearance and for my character. Honestly, when I have had parents, people that I know, or really just anyone start talking about me and reasons why they didn't like me or reasons to stay away from me... It really tore me apart. I got to the point where I was super down and depressed when I would find someone that didn't like me. It made me emotionally and mentally sick. Recently the Lord has been really trying to show me that I need to be confident in who I am in Him. It doesn't matter what others think of me... It just matters what Christ thinks of me. I don't need the approval of anyone, except Christ's. The Lord has ...

Today I am going to be talking about relationships... Okay this is definetely not a topic that I would most like to talk about. Because right now, this is definetely a hard and raw topic for me. But I would love to encourage others that may be going through something similar like me. When I started high school I was extremely boy crazy and wanted a guy to like me so badly. I honestly was so extremely immature when it came to guys that I liked. And every single one of the young men that I liked, the whole thing ended up in a bad situation. Finally when I was a Senior in high school, I had the attitude that guys were stupid and I wanted to be done with them for a VERY long time. For about five months, I continued with that attitude.. But then I started really admiring a young man that I was pretty sure would have been the one that I was going to one day marry. This young man and I started liking one another and we started moving way too fast. At the time, I thought that the relations...

Tonight I was sitting thinking about something to blog about and then I thought... You know what there are eight things I think that every teenage girl needs to know. I am learning each of these things constantly, it isn't a one time thing and then you got it down... No it will take time, so don't worry. You are valuable - Honestly, through out all my teen years, I felt that I needed a guy to make me satified in who I am as a person. I thought:  if I only had a boyfriend, then I would be happy and be content. Let me tell you what, I definetely learned this the hard way. When I started high school I was constantly flirting with guys, trying to get their attention, etc. I basically would have done anything to have a boyfriend... I went behind my parents backs so many times and would end up in trouble, but I didn't care. I wanted to be happy and "satisfied". But let me tell you what, having a guy in your life will definetely not satisfy you. There were times I g...

My life before Christ:  I grew up in a Christian home and went to church every Sunday... But I really did not enjoy church. I only went to church, because I knew it was something we did every week. But I really didn't have a longing to learn anything. As I was growing up in the church, I became very bitter towards my parents, but didn't think I had a problem with my attitude, so I continued down that path. The Turning Point:  After several months of being at Cornerstone (my church), the Lord started working on my heart... I started listening to the sermons that were preached on Sundays and wanting to learn from them and realizing I needed to listen with the intent of learning. I also attended a Bible study for mothers and daughters... One day at one of the Bible studies, there was a college woman that came to speak to us girls. She shared her testimony with us and I realized that she was a mirror image of what I was being like when she was younger. After hearing her testi...

God has been teaching me a ton lately... I have been having some pretty weird times lately with: Relationships, moving, trying to figure out college stuff, trying to find a job, and really trying to figure out what God wants me to do with my future. So to be quite frank, it has been quite burdening and overwhelming for me at times. To be honest, I tried taking matters into my own hands. I tried working out relationships with my own strength, I tried doing things all on my own. I started failing at all these aspects of trying to make things perfect in my life... But I continued to fall on my face doing it. I know it sounds weird and that I should have realized after several times of falling.... But it has taken a lot for me to realize and own up to knowing that I can't do it on my own. Some things I have been learning the last few days about all of this are: I need to trust the Lord with my future, my relationships, and really EVERYTHING! I need to not take control of ever...

Hey everyone,  It has been awhile since I blogged last... I am so sorry, I have been extremely busy lately with trying to prepare for college, finding a job, etc.  Anyways, I am so glad that I am back to blogging, and hopefully will be blogging more often now.  Tonight I was wanting to talk about ways that the Lord has been teaching me and continues to be teaching me.  A few months ago, as most of you know, I was really struggling with feeling insecure and feeling that I was unworthy of anyone or anything in life. I knew that ending my life would not be the answer, because as long as I am living... Christ does indeed have a purpose for every breath I make and every step I take.  But even though I truly knew the truth that God has a purpose for my life, down inside... I kept repeating the lies in my head, that I was: unworthy, unloved, etc. After many tears and trying to beg the Lord for peace and praying that I would feel His presence with m...

Welcome back to the journey of my blog… So sorry that I have been away for so long. I have been busy with finishing up the last few weeks of my senior year. Anyways today I thought: I should post something on my blog today since I have some free time. For awhile I sat here thinking: What in the world can I write on that would be hopefully an encouragement to others? Finally the Lord put on my heart to talk about insecurity. I know you may be sitting here reading that not wanting me to share about this topic… But to be totally honest, I would rather not share about this topic, because I have been struggling with this topic hardcore the past few weeks. So today, I am going to share a little about what I have been going through, line it up with scripture, and try to point you all back to Christ at the same time. I pray that the Lord will use me to be able to encourage you and to remind you that you aren’t alone if you have/are/or will struggle with insecurity. Please put on your ...